Are you sure you want to delete this post?
I think I understand now why you're taking the actions you have. You are not alone. My quick browsing of the subject suggests that 10 percent of women and five percent of men experience PTSD sometime during their lives. Have you sought professional help?
Removing yourself from the source of the trauma is one of the recommendations. I suppose that's why you moved away from Philadelphia.
HelpGuide.org offers some tips to cope with PTSD, but most websites that I have browsed recommended seeking professional help.
MyPTSD is another website that offers people like you to share experiences with your peers. Sometimes just talking in forums with fellow sufferers can help.
Outside of that, I don't know that anyone on this website can help you with your medical condition. We might actually make it worse because some of our debates can get quite heated at times. If you enjoy arguing politics, that's about all we do on this website...and we usually talk past each other.
Anyway, I wish you well in your recovery. Understanding your condition is the first step.