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    LA Citizen - I have read much of what you contribute here and always appreciated your insights. This most recent thread reflects so much of what I had glimpsed in prior posts from you. Your commitment to what you are now speaks volumes. Thank you for sharing all this. It makes me want to shake your hand. You would be welcome in my home.

    Hopefully you will eventually be able to pursue further your interests in educating yourself further. It is never too late to learn. You have learned so much, and should be proud of what you have accomplished. Driving a rig? Hey, no shame in that. Without truckers the world does not move. I know a man who is highly educated, talented, and had opportunities to do almost anything he chose, but in the end he chose to drive a rig......it did not diminish his life nor his production of it. Go for what you want. Your time is now and you deserve it.
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    Due to the improprieties of the subject matter, my comments must be censored /stifled/ deleted. (Lo Siento Mucho).
    Pero, Espero tu eres alegro, fuerte, y libre. Y espero tu no necesita trabajar demasiado. Cantando todos las dias.
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    skys the limit Wrote: LA Citizen - I have read much of what you contribute here and always appreciated your insights. This most recent thread reflects so much of what I had glimpsed in prior posts from you. Your commitment to what you are now speaks volumes. Thank you for sharing all this. It makes me want to shake your hand. You would be welcome in my home.

    Hopefully you will eventually be able to pursue further your interests in educating yourself further. It is never too late to learn. You have learned so much, and should be proud of what you have accomplished. Driving a rig? Hey, no shame in that. Without truckers the world does not move. I know a man who is highly educated, talented, and had opportunities to do almost anything he chose, but in the end he chose to drive a rig......it did not diminish his life nor his production of it. Go for what you want. Your time is now and you deserve it.
    Thank you sir,

    But you may not want to shake my hand...I am mexican. I may steal you watch. Sorry. It's in the DNA
    The problem with me attending school is money. I have to help my sons with things that scholarships, aid, and loans do not cover. Both of them live in the Dorms and always need money. For something or another. I have become an expert at how to load a pre-paid Visa from 7-11
    They only have 1 1/2 semesters left so I'll figure it out.
    One of my sons already has a job waiting at the Department of Water and Power and they will pay for his Masters Degree. They have a shortage of Engineers. I had no idea. My cousin drives a truck for the DWP and made well over 100,000 last year. It pays more then police and fire.
    So, we'll see.....i'll figure it out once I can keep money in my pocket....If there is such a thing
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    Tony Johnson Wrote: L.A.,
    I just read these posts.....It's 2:30 in the morning and I'm going to bed. But, know this...... You're a good man. The way you care about your wife and kids is a great sign that you are living the right way. Congrats on the grandbaby. I had 2 but by my sons new marriage I have 4 now. I've always felt that kids make you a better person. As I've said before...... I think you would be a great neighbor. Take it easy.
    Thank you Mr. T
    .I judge my neighbor on one factor. How many BBQ's will I be invited to? The better the BBQ the better the neighbor....I tried smoking ribs and beef. I can't get it. It's okay, but no awards being won with my smoking skills.

    Regarding my wife...she's a keeper... I guess. She was my mistress during my first marriage. I've known my current wife for well over 35 years. We attended elementary, middle and High School together. She's known my children all their lives...
    I know what you're thinking....and yes...I was not a nice first husband.....But in the church of "WHODAFUCKAWEES" to which I am it's founder....Adultry, pot, strip clubs....and wild parties were part of my weekly rituals....I first checked with the real God (Mexican Jesus).....and received my good lords blessing.
    My wife knows everything about me and vice-versa....so yeah, life is good. Thx
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    eternal flame Wrote: Due to the improprieties of the subject matter, my comments must be censored /stifled/ deleted. (Lo Siento Mucho).
    Pero, Espero tu eres alegro, fuerte, y libre. Y espero tu no necesita trabajar demasiado. Cantando todos las dias.
    True....but funny. I came out with a sense of urgency. I lost my pension with IATSE because of something called" breakage'. I had yet to vest, but took a withdrawl card from the union. My years in prison were greater than my years in the union so I lost it.
    I'm always working, ,but at my job there's more wait time than driving. Always waiting on product....so I break-out my samsung pad (still can't use it correctly) and bother all of you in this forum. Makes my days go by quick..
    But if you remember..I wasn't posting for a while.....I was involved in a fight with another driver. Yes, I won. But after the fight I got real confused and collapsed. I could think but couldn't say words.....i tried speaking and it sounded like gibberish. They said I had a TIA ( a mini stroke). I had never heard of it.....and was forced to go with paramedics. I didn't know that a person can be forced o go in an ambulance..Turned out my blood pressure shot up so high causing it.
    So yeah....."me canto todo las dias'

    You see... we here at the church of WHODAAFUCKAWEES thank the mexican Jesus everyday....for he spared my life that day. I had to lose 30 pounds and eat like a turtle ...along with meds. I'm good now. I stopped the meds and eat healthy. FISH, CHICKEN and LENTIL every day....I was looking like a fat Richard Simmons as Jane Fonda's dvd( "Buns of Steel #3) played in the background.

    Thanks for asking EF.......you liberal hippie
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    L.A. Citizen Wrote:

    But you may not want to shake my hand...I am mexican. I may steal you watch. Sorry. It's in the DNA
    The problem with me attending school is money. I have to help my sons with things that scholarships, aid, and loans do not cover. Both of them live in the Dorms and always need money. For something or another. I have become an expert at how to load a pre-paid Visa from 7-11
    They only have 1 1/2 semesters left so I'll figure it out.
    One of my sons already has a job waiting at the Department of Water and Power and they will pay for his Masters Degree. They have a shortage of Engineers. I had no idea. My cousin drives a truck for the DWP and made well over 100,000 last year. It pays more then police and fire.
    So, we'll see.....i'll figure it out once I can keep money in my pocket....If there is such a thing

    first, I am not a "sir". but thank you for a respectful response Thumbs Up I am a senior citizen grandmother.
    and..... I would shake your hand. Mexican or not, you are a human being, and judging by color or creed is not in MY DNA.
    also....I do not wear a watch ...... perhaps you should have said - "steal your smartphone" Wink

    Good luck, you are doing the best you can, and an admirable job at it.
    I have a grandson who should have gone to college but got into a lot of trouble in high school, and finally turned himself around. Unfortunately he has no desire now for further education. But he is a painter by trade, and has been sober 6 years. I was widowed almost a year ago, and he has been golden for me. And when I can help him, it pleases me to do so. I am thankful I have the means to do so.
    Good luck to your sons too. Educating our youth is a valuable asset if they are capable of learning.
    Maybe once they are working, you can then do more for yourself. Meanwhile, just be the good father you are being for them.
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    L.A.,
    Many Bar B Ques..........Good food is always enjoyable.
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    My fellow trucker (well, I'm retired now, but for over 30 yrs I did regional hauling on East Coast) . . . .
    . . . . . . and in response to what you share of your life and mind, may I say . . my friend . . .?

    You may not have "story" for a book. But you surely have experience in life, honesty and depth of introspection, awareness of not only yourself but others.
    You have your lifespan (to date) -- a spectrum that most people haven't lived, or even conceived. You present not only information and inspiration, but lessons
    to others. And what you impart that should be promoted, even published, is not just that you were in prison, but that you "went through" prison and emerged with
    all the qualifications of the teacher you'd once thought of being -- and now exceptional course material to impart to others. Your life and all its aspects.

    You may not have a "story" to tell, but you have a continuum to present within the context of your straight-on "eloquence" of where you see things are at. Just a collection of your past (hopefully available) and ongoing threads and blogs should be compiled, archived, and made available for others to know what you know.
    One "dimension" of what you know derived from how you grew up, what level of education or training you had, what socio-economic circumstances attracted you to, or represented necessity of, illegal commerce that resulted in your incarceration; and since release, your realizations which you share with others.
    Another "dimension" of what you have to offer others would be the probably innumerable anecdotes and observations and circumstances -- a prime example being the guy who shouldn't have been convicted of rape because he gave the woman a choice of a bullet (and I wonder if she'd resisted rape and he'd shot her, if he'd have protested that he should't have been convicted of murder because he would have actually 'saved her life by raping her instead . . .)

    You may not have a "story", but you inform and inspire and enlighten me (and I'm sure all us Demo-s). Far more than just a blogsite populace would all be the more enhanced in their lives by knowing more of yours. (all you'd compile could be kept "anonymous" and published under a "pseudonym" -- or you could just be the more proud of who you are by proclaiming yourself as author).

    You may not have a "story". No need to write a story, my friend, Reality isn't a story. A book sure can be other than a "story" (I've published 37, some I've mentioned now and then in my posts). Your book could just be "collected" over a period of time. Seems like in the last couple weeks you've written some a number of pages that could go into that collection -- to be published in book-form. You, or if you'd approve, another could just collect and compile your posts and anything else you'd want to write for inclusion. Eventually when book-length (150 pgs or so mininmum), the material could be "organized" (such as time-sequence), or just presented as "free-association-collage" of a literary "art-form" -- your life in your words.
    I hope you'll respond to this idea . . . (which is also offer of a collaborator or at least co-collector).
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    alongcameaschneider Wrote: My fellow trucker (well, I'm retired now, but for over 30 yrs I did regional hauling on East Coast) . . . .
    . . . . . . and in response to what you share of your life and mind, may I say . . my friend . . .?

    You may not have "story" for a book. But you surely have experience in life, honesty and depth of introspection, awareness of not only yourself but others.
    You have your lifespan (to date) -- a spectrum that most people haven't lived, or even conceived. You present not only information and inspiration, but lessons
    to others. And what you impart that should be promoted, even published, is not just that you were in prison, but that you "went through" prison and emerged with
    all the qualifications of the teacher you'd once thought of being -- and now exceptional course material to impart to others. Your life and all its aspects.

    You may not have a "story" to tell, but you have a continuum to present within the context of your straight-on "eloquence" of where you see things are at. Just a collection of your past (hopefully available) and ongoing threads and blogs should be compiled, archived, and made available for others to know what you know.
    One "dimension" of what you know derived from how you grew up, what level of education or training you had, what socio-economic circumstances attracted you to, or represented necessity of, illegal commerce that resulted in your incarceration; and since release, your realizations which you share with others.
    Another "dimension" of what you have to offer others would be the probably innumerable anecdotes and observations and circumstances -- a prime example being the guy who shouldn't have been convicted of rape because he gave the woman a choice of a bullet (and I wonder if she'd resisted rape and he'd shot her, if he'd have protested that he should't have been convicted of murder because he would have actually 'saved her life by raping her instead . . .)

    You may not have a "story", but you inform and inspire and enlighten me (and I'm sure all us Demo-s). Far more than just a blogsite populace would all be the more enhanced in their lives by knowing more of yours. (all you'd compile could be kept "anonymous" and published under a "pseudonym" -- or you could just be the more proud of who you are by proclaiming yourself as author).

    You may not have a "story". No need to write a story, my friend, Reality isn't a story. A book sure can be other than a "story" (I've published 37, some I've mentioned now and then in my posts). Your book could just be "collected" over a period of time. Seems like in the last couple weeks you've written some a number of pages that could go into that collection -- to be published in book-form. You, or if you'd approve, another could just collect and compile your posts and anything else you'd want to write for inclusion. Eventually when book-length (150 pgs or so mininmum), the material could be "organized" (such as time-sequence), or just presented as "free-association-collage" of a literary "art-form" -- your life in your words.
    I hope you'll respond to this idea . . . (which is also offer of a collaborator or at least co-collector).
    I appreciate what you said...but again....nobody is interested in what I have to say. I share my experiences in here because most of these members have no idea about our laws, or our prisons. Some have lived entire lives just assuming that that laws are just, the police are great people, and that prisons are hotels.
    I share my experiences only to make some members "aware".

    In the eighties when I got involved with gangs....this wasn't that nonsense you see on television. For me, it was deep rooted in my community since the forties.
    We all knew each other as children, went to the same schools...so it was a natural event. The shit you see on TV is complete nonsense. We never had our community as hostages. They all knew us. Generations of us.....Today, the news has us as street terrorists. A complete Fallacy.
    The gang MS 13 started in Los Angeles. They were forced to use 13 after the letter MS. They started 10 blocks from my house. They were El Salvadoran in Los Angeles. (not a good thing) The Mexican Mafia runs Los Angeles and basically forced them out to other states ......and now America thinks they are some huge syndicate. They are not and never have been. That's all television. I have to start laughing when I see the coverage. It's all "FLUFF" for deportation and drug conspiracy purposes. They became the Poster child for all The RICO cases in mid-west. After the war on meth the war on gangs began. The number 13 is not only symbolic in Aztec culture but it represents the 13th letter of the alphabet M; in spanish EME...mexican mafia. If they didn't run 13 in the CDC (CA state corrections) they were dealt with...This was a prison issue,,,never a street option. I don't know where they find these idiots who actually "interview" on these idiotic gang exposes....But it sure does scare the hell out of of the citizenry. Thats what the feds wanted....Its easier to get indictments, easier to bend the 4th amm.. and a whole lot easier to get convictions on multiple conspiracy indictments...and a massive trend in deportation......... THE BOOGEY MAN is here..RUN

    The problem I would have writing any of this is I will never in any attempt try and glorify drugs and gangs. Never. There's too much of it. We actually have televesion shows that promote illegal activity. I can honestly say that I have lost well over 25 good friends. All dead. All as result of gangs. I have a photo that I keep today. Myself and 5 friends. Young, I remenber taking the photo as if it were yesterday. Everyone in the photo is dead...except me. All 5 murdered prior to 1991. Not one of them made it to 24 yrs old.
    In choosing the life I wanted. (EMBRACED) I lost many friends, I left my children (through my action), my Mother and Father. I destroyed my first marriage because I chose gangs.. I had no relationship with other family members, I assisted people in poisoning themselves (cocaine) I had a zero impact on my community (neighbors). I never attended college.....ALL FOR FUN. LOOK AT ME...I"M A BIG SHOT.

    WHO IN THE HELL WOULD WANT TO READ THAT? If I were ever skilled enough to write a book..the title would be: THE TEN MOST AMAZING WAYS TO DESTROY YOUR LIFE.....while having fun.
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    You're definitely on my list as a friend, but to be officially "friended" on Demohub . . . . how the hell do I do that?
    As you've seen re. the snow conditions in the Northeast, I'm damn glad I'm not still running 53'ers in around the Boston or between there and
    Jersey (every night for a couple years). Bad enough driving a 4-wheeler with 4WD around these snowbank-clogged streets.
    I look forward to ongoing communication.
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    My god, L. A., you are writing a book. Every paragraph and page such as this post I'm responding to. Masterpiece literature -- your skill to communicate profoundly without hypercomplexity (such as the way I write . . .). You're writing important literature -- of which the infrastructure/education has been your experiences in your life, but the cognitive and intellectual structure you've created on that foundation is a unique wisdom . . . . . and you've said it right out here: a perspective that the general populace is either ignorant of or completely misled about by entertainment distortion or socio-political deviance.

    Who would want to read what you write? Who'd want to have read Studs Terkel? (or is it Turkel?) Or other critique/commentators on society, individuals, and experiences somehow applicable to all (such as the prison-to-international-policy/procedure-analogy) . . . so many need to read such unique perspectives.
    Who'd want to read you? All those who partake of Demohub (how many thousand (?) read our posts with interest but don't provide feedback). Who? Potentially anyone who reads in order to learn!!

    My god, L. A., you are writing a book
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    My two cents added - L A - your posts are great and I always look for them. You write HONESTY and EXPERIENCE. With humor, and a bit of tongue in cheek.
    I hope you consider somehow compiling your thoughts somehow - you have a lot to offer.
    Keep them coming.
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    alongcameaschneider Wrote: You're definitely on my list as a friend, but to be officially "friended" on Demohub . . . . how the hell do I do that?
    As you've seen re. the snow conditions in the Northeast, I'm damn glad I'm not still running 53'ers in around the Boston or between there and
    Jersey (every night for a couple years). Bad enough driving a 4-wheeler with 4WD around these snowbank-clogged streets.
    I look forward to ongoing communication.
    You just have to accept the friend but hey changed everything so just keep trying. I already saw your books on google. You publlished a whole lotta stuff. DAMN. A lot of books. Impressive.
    There is no way I was gonna run the northeast after I got out. No way. I slept on steel for years...not going to sleep on anything other than a bed...and at home ! I got offerred some reefer work to Boston...pays well..., but NO WAY. I run local. Farthest I go is San Diego.....and thats only an hour and a half..
    I love traffic...that's all my OT. In Caloifornia we can drive 12 hours + another 4 for for loading and all that other good stuff.. TOOOO much weather on the east coast.
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    skys the limit Wrote: My two cents added - L A - your posts are great and I always look for them. You write HONESTY and EXPERIENCE. With humor, and a bit of tongue in cheek.
    I hope you consider somehow compiling your thoughts somehow - you have a lot to offer.
    Keep them coming.
    I have another true story.
    .My friend Eddie was shot on the same exact corner in three seperate incidents. In three consecutive years. He was the guy that would get drunk, and want to just walk home (4 blocks). Well, in each of the three years he fell one block short.
    !st time: shot in the lower back and leg;''''''''''' Healed, Lived
    2nd time: face and and the bottom of his foot.'''''''healed, Lived
    3rd time; Multiple shots to stomach and legs.....Healed. Lived
    Here's the funny thing....when I was called about the 2nd and 3rd incidents and was told....I replied,' That's old news"....In both incidents my friend said.."
    .NO, it happebed again....Same corner"

    On his 3rd time...it really messed up his insides,,,,,he had to have a colostomy bag for 6 months .....He would actually go on dates wearing his "shit Bag"
    One night..before going out on his date he was embarrassed about the smell of his bag...so he squirted a lot of cologne in an attempt to mask the smell.
    Eddie asked...."what does it smell like?....I replied " Like someone just shit and dove into a pool of chanel #5"...He didn't go out that night'

    Eddie is still alive to this very day.....drugs alcohol, 3 shootings....he's still ticking. I recently told him..."keep doing what you're doing and you'll never die.
    Funny..you laugh when your able to look back and remember..